Although this is a book that shares knowledge and some instruction, it is a very personal story as well. A great deal of personal experience has gone into this writing that seems necessary in order to accurately share the knowledge of this medicine. Learning of this kind is transformative and personal growth is inevitable if one truly engages in it. Many internal changes have taken place even in the writing of this book and as a consequence many changes have been made. It was difficult for me to know when enough changes were made and this book could be called complete. I eventually accepted that there can be no complete written account of life changing experiences or the methods by which they occur. So this is simply what seemed the most relevant and relatable. There is much more that seems cant fit into words. It is similar to the telling of a dream, the experience of having the dream cannot be translated to the listener of the story of the dream. Much is untellable. If some readers engage in some of the exercises in this book they may understand how the experience of shifting consciousness in this way cannot be told and fully understood. With that said it seems important to mention that these exercises are powerful and result in powerful effects. The mind is a tricky place and when explored only becomes even more mysterious. This medicine teaches how to have a new kind of relationship with the mind. The implication being that the mind is not me, it is not a part of my original equipment at birth. It is intended to empower the practitioner to transform suffering and make it useful in ways that can lead to greater joy and happiness in relationships with both the inner and outer worlds. Discomfort is a part of this process of learning. There were times in my own learning experience of questioning my sanity and even my connection with reality. Perception is something we create but often do not take responsibility for creating. When we learn to do this, we become deliberate creators. Part of this learning requires a willingness to accept responsibility for creating what feels like suffering as much as what feels like pleasure. While the intention of this book is to share the learning and make it available to anyone who wishes to use it. Please use caution and take care in its application. It is a common experience when engaging in learning of this kind to reach a place of feeling stuck and this can be maddening at times, depending on what feeling you are stuck in. Just as it is an act of personal responsibility to seek medical help when trying to diagnose an illness it is equally responsible to seek help from a mental health professional when experiencing emotional suffering that is potentially harmful. We cannot see ourselves objectively and as much as we would like to think our friends and family can help us through hard times, they are just as unclear as we are most of the time. While the information in this book is amazing and can be used to transform your life experience, it is in no way a replacement for the learning that comes from two human beings interacting with the purpose of creating a healing experience. At this point in my own learning my current view is that a balance of do it yourself and asking for help seems to be the best approach. One of the most difficult things for me to accept over the years was that this learning written about in this book is not for everyone. It took many years for me to widen my view so that it included the possibility that this particular kind of learning is right for people who feel a connection to it and there seems to be a whole bunch of learning that comes before it can even be acceptable by those who truly want it. Responsibility is so powerful that the mind will fight us for it. Being at war with the mind however is not advisable and in most cases dangerous to varying degrees. The act of taking responsibility must be something the individual is truly wanting to do. Most people have had the experience of saying they want to exercise or do something that is good for them but in reality they just want to experience the result it will bring and do not want to actually do the exercise. This is what it is like to explore personal responsibility. Most people want to experience the freedom and joy that can come from the act of taking back control over your choices and the deliberate creation of your own reality. What is not attractive in most cases is the act of doing so which requires admitting that the mess in front of them was also an act of their own creation and not mom or dad’s fault. Taking responsibility can be so scary to some people that they will begin to engage in harmful self sabotaging for the sake of claiming that things just simply happen outside of their control. It is for this reason that I say to use caution. These exercises are nothing to be afraid of, it is simply important to respect how powerful your reaction may be. Having said all that about using caution, some may find that they simply cannot detect any effect at all. This is the other side of the same coin. Sometimes a person will deflect so strongly that they cannot engage successfully in the exercise. This too has to do with avoiding responsibility. We all deflect it to some degree and this changes with one subject to another. I have had many personal experiences of engaging in an exercise on my own and being very frustrated that I cannot seem to access the feelings that will allow for the successful completion of it. In almost every case and after seeking some objective assistance I would learn that this missing piece was my willingness to accept responsibility for creating what I was reacting to. In some cases it was a different type of deflection. It was an unwillingness to look at what it was in the situation I was actually reacting to. Some mirrors are more easily accepted than others. Whatever your experience it is likely to lead to some kind of new awareness. My hope and intention for others who wish to engage in this learning is that they do so with respect for the power of the mind to create and take responsibility for that creation, weather it be pleasure or suffering. Experiencing either can lead to greater healing in time. Before getting on with things I would like to share a little story that I learned along the way. This story has to do with the idea of perception and what is often perceived as cruelty can be a gift that leads us to our greatest strength. In the wild, when a baby giraffe is born, it will stand on its new legs only minutes after separating from its mothers body. When the baby finally finds its footing, the mother promptly knocks it down, and does so repeatedly. At first this may seem cruel, but upon further inspection it seems that it is not the knocking down that the mother wants to accomplish. It is the strength the baby’s legs will build in the act of getting up over and over again. In the wild it may be the case that the animal will need to run to escape being eaten shortly after being born, this requires strong legs. Taking personal responsibility can often feel as if we have been knocked down, what follows however can often be the building of strength we need to survive and enjoy our lives. It seems that harsh inner judgement can often accompany responsibility. I like to look at it in this way. If I am creating my experience all the time and I am sometimes surprised at what is in my experience, this means I am not fully aware of how I do this creating. Taking responsibility for the creating will assist me in learning how I do it. Taking partial responsibility will lead to partial empowerment. It is a choice for everyone and not everyone will choose the path of deliberate creation. For those who like the idea, there may be some useful information in this book.